I saw this...

I found it here where i was stalking today.  I love it and it sums up the best advice for crazy swirls of my brain lately.

To Do List

The list of things I SHOULD or would like to do with all of my "spare" time:

* Finish the prototype of my gift of the season that I told myself I could easily make for multiple people by Christmas since I started in early October.
*Make or buy and send out invitations for my daughters birthday party that is now less than three weeks away.
*Make a workout plan I can actually stick to.  (I had a 100 miles I planned on doing by tomorrow, I started in September...I think I've logged about 20, come to think of it I'm not sure where that check off sheet is.
*Take this bag of donations to the goodwill before it sits in my living room for another month.
*Actually enforce my "Clean your room today or..." threats
*Clean!  Beyond the daily messes and laundry this place needs some scrubbing.

 I'm sick of my own list, I think it's time to go to bed.

Learn how to spell should be on this list too! 

Things I'm loving today...

*that my daughter is counting down the days to her birthday.
*that my son loves making me coffee (we have a single cup maker).
*I finished a HUGE project at work, and feel like 100 lbs. was lifted off my shoulders.
*the lady at work that asks to see my shoes all the time.  She makes me feel like I have some kind of fashion sense. 
*long talks with far away friends.
*that my mom made me popcorn balls for a Halloween treat, just because she knows I love them more than any candy!

To delete or not to delete?

I realized today that I started this blog as a place for me, a place to be me, and really truth be told a place where there were no expectations of "me".  The funny part is, I started a blog to be free to "just be" and yet I put myself in a box - AGAIN. 

SO, I came up with a little list (OK really I'm "coming up" with said list as I type - yep - THAT'S ME).

I AM NOT...

*a fitness or weight loss blogger - i just can't talk about it that much, obviously - look at my sporatic posting!
*a english major.  Who cares?
*a mommy blogger.  I've read some really great mommy blogs - but it's just NOT me!  I pretty much feel like a mommy failure most of the time.
*a fashion blogger - trust me you don't want to see my closet, or the things I wear sometimes.
*a food blogger.  Actually, out of all of these this is the one I'd love to "try" the most, but first does anyone know a free dishwasher?
*one of these super cool girls I blog stalk all the time.

I AM....ready for this, it's totally mind blowing....

ME, and that's exactly who I need to start being, on here and IRL.  This should be fun. 

P.S. I thought about going back and deleting all of the wah, wah weight loss stuff, and or the "hello, is anyone there" - but one thing I can't stand is fake - and that stuff was me, that day and in that moment so deleting it would be like lying to you.....so if you like it read it if you don't - thanks for stopping by. 

A few things I've learned about me lately...

For a person who REALLY likes their quiet time (especially first thing in the morning), quiet gets old pretty quick!  Just so you know, I'm really not kidding here, I can not be held responsible for anything I say or do before I have had at least an hour to myself in the morning,  (this time can be cut in half with a cup of coffee)  consider yourself warned.

The blog, facebook, pintrest, twitter world(s) have sucked me in lately - BIG TIME, and I'm finding that to be both positive and negative.  Remember just because you are expecting someone to call you, text you, or stop by doesn't mean that they don't have another life too, so put on your big girl panties and don't be jealous of the Internet.  Not that I'm speaking from experience here at all.

Simple rules of one size does NOT fit all.  Try a look on before you get attached to it, just because that super cute girl on that amazing blog looks really great in that knit pancho/jeggings and boots get up it doesn't mean you will.  This sounds pretty stinking negative until you realize the same cute girl REALLY.LOVES the way you look and "fill" out that dress you wore.  Love what you have, and if you don't try to improve it to make yourself feel better not to look like her. 

Pretty sure there are a lot of other really great pieces of advice I have for myself and the occasional random computer that stops here, but for now I gotta go. 

Jogging in Place

162.5 last Friday....that's "down" 0.4 and yet it's still not a new number.

Over 4 months of this back and forth, 19 weeks stuck in this place.  I've tried to eat differently, I've tried to count, I"ve tried to make a huge goal....trying isn't working.  It's time to commit!  Time to stop jogging in place and go somewhere.  Plateau, yes unearned - not exactly.  Come on Tiffany, get it together - lets see that scale move this week! 

How is that for some self motivation?

Filter

Thank goodness we (well most of us) have that inner filter to control our speaking.  Can you imagine how rude, insensitive, unfriendly you would be perceived as if all of your thoughts came out?  Oh, come on you know exactly what I'm talking about.

*You walk into a public bathroom and think - DANG it stinks in here!
*You walk past someone whose clothes are suddenly fitting a little tighter.
*A co-worker or friend says something totally stupid, and then corrects them self.

So why don't (most of us) just blurt this stuff out?  Well, I like to think it's because we have been taught better, and we care about other people and a little bit of perception too.  Often times when a snarky, unkind comment bubbles up in my head I try to think of that persons situation.  Maybe the bathroom stinks because the person in that stall is feeling ill today, and I'm sure she is totally embarrassed.  Who knows if the lady you saw with clothes a little too tight is pregnant and not telling anyone because she has lost a baby before. 

My  reflection question is why do we have the kindness and respect for OTHERS to turn on our filter, and yet we don't follow the same rules when "talking to" ourselves. 
I need to work on filtering my self language, how about you?